Style: An Unlikely Form of Medicine
I sometimes find myself in situations I would characterize as less than desirable. We all do. Saying life has its "ups and downs" is just a euphemism for life is really bad sometimes, but we must get through it... we just have to.
My style is the essence by which I get through all of life’s "ups and downs." Life is not all sunshine and rainbows…Losing my mom to cancer at the age of 8, I learned that lesson earlier than most. Nobody asked me for my permission to be 8 years olds and motherless, nobody asked me that… and I think that’s just where so many of us get tangled up in this life.
We try to make sense of God’s plan for us WHILE he is building his masterpiece. Some things are legitimately bad. We can’t sugarcoat them and say “Guess that was God’s will.” That is not being positive nor being optimistic, that is being idiotic. The bible verse goes: “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” (Romans 8:28). It does NOT go: “Hey, guys everything is good in this world. Murder is good. Rape is good. Starvation and poverty are good sooo ummmm you better smile about it.” The Lord can make a beautiful butterfly out of any caterpillar. It means when you go though things, you can use it as a testimony to someone and help others get through it. Who better to console a child afflicted by poverty than someone who grew up in poverty? The Lord works in unconventional ways, they are so intricate and we could never even begin to understand. I know we are all on the Beyonce "Lemonade" train right now (SLAYYY MAMA, hot sauce in my bag, becky with that good hair, twirl on my haterssss), but the saying still holds true: When life gives you lemons, make lemonade. Personally, I think the phrase should have been: When life gives you grapes, you make wine, but I digress…
But you can have this thing… This thing that pushes you through the finish line of every hard day. For me, that is expressing myself creatively. Be it my style, my writing, or my acting… They all share a special place in my heart and they make me feel whole. Like many people who go through childhood trauma, I will always have a huge, gaping whole in my heart. It won’t ever truly be healed until I meet my mom again in heaven. However, while I am on this earth, I seek to the live the most fulfilling life possible. I look forward to my new business and personal ventures ahead. The time is now, it’s time for me to stop being a little scaredy cat putting one foot in the pool. It is time to full on dive in. Unless, of course, I just got my hair done… Then, there will be no “diving” in… figuratively or otherwise.
This website will serve as a creative outlet where I share my thoughts, ideas, and eventually… my clothing line.
There, I said it. I will be starting a clothing line, JESUS TAKE THE WHEEEEL. I can’t believe I said it out loud. Now, you can all hold me accountable.