I am the Captain Now
Here we are, 29 years old. WOW. I weirdly feel so old, but like a child at the same time. Late 20s are such a transitional time. For me specifically, I've learned that everyone has their own path and you are exactly where you are supposed to be. It's not just some stupid cliche older people tell you, it's actually true.
There is so much pressure from our parents, peers, random people on social media, etc. to be at a certain point in life by a certain time. It couldn't be any more exhausting. I am not here to sit and tell you that I'm immune to all of this (LAWDDDD, that would be a lie). I'm just here to encourage you to smash those expectations and march to the beat of your own drum. I have always been my own person with my own ideas. I've always been super creative and yearned to make all my entrepreneurial dreams come true. I have so many ideas, my head could explode (I have 2 book ideas, small batch minimalist clothing line aspirations, and much more). The only problem is... I am the biggest scaredy cat you'll ever meet. I want all my ducks in a row before taking the plunge. It's great that I'm uber responsible, but it holds me back. Taking risks is just not my thing! I overthink situations to the point of making myself physically ill sometimes. I never doubt that I will accomplish my goals. I think they could happen faster if I had more "balls."
29 is the year I am doing things MY way. I mean, I've always lived this way, but I'm taking it to a new level that I hope will give me peace. Whatever age you are, I hope you join me. I vow to continue eliminating people and things that don't align with the life I seek to create. Remember, you are not obligated to have any person or thing in your life. You can delete people for any reason, at any time.
I also want to learn to live in the moment. This has never been something I've been good at. I don't just want to live in the moment on a literal day to day basis, but also in a more figurative way. I want to be able to say "yes" to living somewhere new for a year and realize that a year is not that long. I want to "live" a little! I am also done explaining myself to people. If we don't gel, we don't gel. No hard feelings, but everyone does not have to like you! I'm not suggesting you go around making enemies, but does it really matter if Jonathan in accounting doesn't "get" you? GOODBYE. Safe Travels. Tata!
As women, I feel like we are constantly expected to apologize or explain ourselves. For what, though? It's absurd. I'm "too old" to care. Literally, I've been feeling too old to care since I was like 24.
Why are so many of us always trying to get irrelevant people to understand us. I see people get into Facebook fights all the time and I just shake my head. If June Bug thinks racism or sexism doesn't exist, your comments will not change his mind. Spend your words on people who matter. People don't change very often. They can evolve, but true change is rare. Use your energy on receptive ears and those who want to learn.
So, this is 29. It's more bold. It's more grounded. It's more ME.